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OBLIGATION VS. PRIORITY. it's always fucking me over.
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[12 Sep 2006|08:24pm] |
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i'm tired of small talk, i'm tired of classroom humor, i'm tired of "hi how are you"s and all the formulas that go along. i'm bitter as fuck, and i'm done with it.
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| nephilim |
[28 Jul 2006|07:27pm] |
just a roll of pictures i took for my photoclass, they're the only ones i have on digital media
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| 11:11, and that's how i made you mine |
[25 Jul 2006|07:52pm] |
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i'm on my dad's laptop and the keys are really shitty and not put together in a standard formation so it's really hard to type. not that it makes any difference.
yesterday i worked, and got six rolls of 24 developed. plus an 8x10 slide. my mom found an entire box full of old kodachrome/technicolor slides from 1930+. i stayed up all night looking through them all, holding them up to the chandelier light. it fascinated me. back then the negatives were still in medium and large format for regular photography. there was this one envelope labled "colored model". inside, there was an old black woman with a huge head wrap and a look that could have given anyone a heart attack. i laughed so much.
i like work, but ann's obsessive strictness to the rules has been bending my nerves. i'm just not a patient person, and she just talks too much. i don't really want to elaborate.
today my mom and i went to the farmer's market. i looked up, and there was a woman taking a picture of me taking a picture of a little girl. she had a canon 20d and a huuuuge lense with a battery attatchment. we talked for a while, and then took some pictures together. she was real nice, except that you could tell she'd had one too many newports in her life. i couldn't tell what she was saying a lot of the time. the farmer's market is so quaint, i love tuesdays.
i need some booze.
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| jump! |
[22 Jul 2006|09:38pm] |
hi, i'm lauren myrycle
i hate blockbuster. i spent 10 bucks on two movies, and both of them are too scratched to be viewed. that just pisses me off. if you're going to sell overpriced rentals that i have to return in like, half a day, then at least make it worth it. you cheap bastards. none the less, my patience let me watch half of "gummo" and "god is good (but i'm not)"
i want a canon 30d and a sigma f-1.4 more than anything. anybody got a spare $2000 that they can lend me? after um, 60 days at ritz i get an impressive seven percent discount.
at random amanda picked me up and i bought summer reading books at barnes and noble. god damnit, a month? where did this summer go? and what the hell have i been doing?
i bought a lot of weird second hand clothes today, and some photolife magazines. life's okay; the thought of going back to school isn't
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| i can be yours |
[19 Jul 2006|08:43pm] |
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work is so funny sometimes. i was undressing the "ritz camera bears" and putting a seasonally appropriate shirt on them, and morely just goes off about how children are the bane of his existence.
"i'm bigger, taller, i can draw better, i'm more coordinated, i'm not even allowed in t-ball leagues... if they have a kid's meal why can't i have a men's meal? instead of a toy and apple juice, i want beer and pornography."
and then the whole staff made fun of me for being "level one" at ritz camera. basically, i can't ever get above level one because i'm under 18. level one just means i can't handle the chemicals that develop the film in the C41 processor. haha, big d. i love camera humor.
shaky decisions, story of my life. right? right.
calie and becky came and visited me today, and no customers came in for like 2 hours! it was amazing.
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| wasn't me, i wasn't there |
[18 Jul 2006|10:23pm] |
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it feels weird that i'm starting to worry about all things school. i have to read "of mice and men" and "gatsby's great american dream". come on now, i have respect for the classics, but couldn't they mix it up a little bit? i'm tired of reading old war books, as interesting as they can be.
i just got back from photography class. it's very interesting, and it's probably my favorite place to be at the moment. i love knowing i'm not obligated to know any of the material, it makes me want to remember every word of it. i love everything about photographing and cameras. it just fascinates me. i don't care if it's cliche, because the feeling i get from having a genuine interest can't be replicated. i really want a nikon d70. i never thought i'd be having feuds in my mind over whether or not i want a car, or a camera. and never, ever did i think they'd end up costing about the same.
today, i managed to get the maxima from my mom and finally cleaned it. it wasn't really all that messy, but apparently, "if you're going to use this car, you better clean it! you have no respect for anyone's things! if you want to drive this car you are going to clean it!" god, my mom is menopausal. jeff called me, and i picked him up for work. that boy can make me laugh so hard. starbucks water pump is broken, so he couldn't make anything at all. i brought him lunch and we hung out for a little. i got a cd made a ritz for my class. i asked morely to make me a cd and he was like "do it yourself!" i love not having to pay for film.
i picked up derek, and we reunited for the twentieth time (this month). we went to goodwill and found nothing but second hand margarita mix. and then there was kmart. lebron makes really shitty gum.
i've gotta drop all these bad habits, guys.
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| you're made of the softest part of snow |
[18 Jul 2006|12:43am] |
well damn, i've proved myself right for the millionth time. i have no dedication, patience, and human emotion to speak of. i guess it's just another mind game against myself that i've lost.
despite it all, i've been working a lot. katie called me last night, and she visited me today at work. it made me incredibly happy, i haven't seen her in a while because she went to canada and michigan. she brought me cheesy souveniers that are right up my (creepy) alley. today at work i snuck some monochrome film through the processor. for the 10 minute span i had to shoot them all, they came out okay. hell yeah.
tomorrow is my third photography class.
i love it more than anything.
i miss getting really fucked up and somehow ending up on amanda's bathroom floor. always in that god damn bathroom. i really need to go read, but i'm so tired.
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| kingdom of the trolls |
[13 Jul 2006|11:09pm] |
right now, i'm watching "a troll in central park" with amanda. we just watched dirty pretty things, with audrey tautou in it. that girrrrl amazing.
today i hung out with jansen. we watched really low-quality cartoons. you know, those kinds that you see that are illegal knock-offs of disney movies? mmmm. and then watched a home-video of jeff. i like spending time with that boy.
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[12 Jul 2006|08:19pm] |
i never thought i'd see the day when ritz camera was so slow that my completely by-the-rules manager would throw a english to greek translation book at me and giggle when i said, "where can i get clean syringes around here?" to her.
lately's been good.
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| cut to the chase |
[11 Jul 2006|11:11pm] |
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"lauren's uncut commentary"
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[08 Jul 2006|10:13pm] |
playnwithmycomie: shofer me now borg
playnwithmycomie: test my soupy kate
playnwithmycomie: and name me lilly
broadway scandal: wtf
playnwithmycomie: stop COW!!
playnwithmycomie: i dont know you!!
playnwithmycomie: you think your scene
broadway scandal: alright
playnwithmycomie: FUk terry now
playnwithmycomie: HO
wow guys, i'm glad we've reached a point of maturity.
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[07 Jul 2006|10:22am] |
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work is so fun! when we're slow i get to do color corrections on my own pictures. the hours are really reasonable. it pays well. so hell yeah.
ann's my boss. she's a very large lady and she's one of those people who feels empowered by her body type. on four seperate occasions in the past two days, she has started talking about how fucking huge her hands are. she's very anal, and she's also one of those people who will talk your ear off if she knows what she's doing. but not answer you if she doesn't.
kelly is the girl who's training me. she's around 30, but she looks twelve. she's a certified lab technician.
moresly is a cynical bastard who is all about worker's compensation. which i think is hilarious. he wears a big gothcore chain, and has two jobs and no car.
patrick is half my size, and has a john trevolta chin. he's really nice but he seems shy. he makes fun of how tall he is a lot.
i've been in a bad mood because most of my friends are complete assholes. what did i ever do to you? the least you could do is try to give a shit when you're around me. i'm not wasting anymore time or effort because i don't have any to spare.
my mom has turned into a human breathalizer. and i was watching gus van sant's last days and she freaked out and sent my dad in to talk to me about her "concerns". my dad was like "lauren, you know this movie doesn't have a happy ending. why are you watching it?" and then my mom came in crying and asked me why i was so infatuated with him (kurt cobain, not my dad). i'm hardly infatuated with kurt cobain. i hardly like nirvana. i just had nothing else to do. i just about punched in a wall that night.
i had a really strange dream last night. it made me miss someone like fucking crazy. shittt
oh, and i also had another dream that kimya dawson had her baby. what the fuck!
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| a little change could go a long ways |
[02 Jul 2006|07:33pm] |
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i'm in a such a bad mood right now. it's partially because i have a headache, though. i just wish i wasn't so damn passive all the fucking time. but i've got what i've need, and i need what i've got.
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| "unity through diversity; all are one" |
[29 Jun 2006|03:18pm] |
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to top this off, i have a job at ritz due to the fact that i am a persistant ass. i'm so excited about that. why is everything going to amazingly? oh ps, my brother played frisbee with warren (the drummer from against me!) at warped tour. how fucking hilarious is that. i just about died.
pss- my hair is now "beige blonde". amanda's mom thinks it's my color.
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[28 Jun 2006|12:52pm] |
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i'm going to see afi at the house of blues. fuck all of you, assholes! i'm going to scream every word with amanda eglen and it's going to be wonderful.
PS, i had my job interview at ritz and i think it went really well. i get commission for that job! what the fuck, yeah! my first photography class last night was amazing. i'm so excited about everything.
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| gospel |
[26 Jun 2006|10:35am] |
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happy birthday to katie cross, the anchor to my ship!!
i made her a purse yesterday, and it turned out really good. i guess i don't suck at sewing after all.
i got some prints done at ritz, and the double exposure that i experimented with actually turned out decently. i have to call them in an hour to talk to the district manager about how i really want this job. i think it pays well, too.
warped tour? fuck that.
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[23 Jun 2006|12:30pm] |
yesterday i drove around and almost got in a wreck like 12 different times. jesus, i'm a horrible driver. i went to hungryneck boulevard antique store and bought katie's birthday present and took some pictures. the people in there watch me like i'm about to shove a china doll down my shirt. i met katie at goodwill because she got her restricted, and bought some circa 40's shoes. we went back to her house and made a really elaborate pizza, and then went to laing in search of graphitti. laing is the most broken down, ghetto school ever. and there was no graphitti. i hope the pictures came out okay. then we went back to my house and jumped in the pool with our clothes on. because what other way would i have it?
today, i have to wait for my mom to bring the car home. i have to stop at ritz to pick up some film, god they must hate me. i go in there everyday either to drop off film or to remind them that they need to hire me. and then katie and i are going to sneak to north charleston to meet her brother at exchange factor? i guess.
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[22 Jun 2006|09:36am] |
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REASONS TO BE HAPPY
derek and i are friends again.
i'm officially signed up for photography lessons, at alterman studios. every tuesday.
only one more month on my shitty altell phone service.
i love driving.
underwater photography project with calie chapman, and "go stand behind the lady with the lamp".
writing.
my mom not knowing that i have her credit card.
my mom being amazing.
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